Positively looking at things

Trauma and dilemma always make people feel down, and I am no exception from it too. But somehow I think quickly pick up the light is one way of chasing the shadow away. Not to say things immediately change, but at least the mood part can be saved. We will pull ourselves up faster once we aren't feeling continue drowning and drowning. So I guess I am looking for sun lately, not the type that burn and melt us down (at the mid day or 3 in the afternoon) but the energy and heat that keep my heart warm so that I can pull it through the dark and cold times.

Here, I brought light into the dark and shine the wet away.

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What a weekend

Had some fun by waking up 7am and play some jokes while capturing the energetic rising sun.

Cindy

Marvin

Haha, aren't they lovely?

To spend an evening with mom

Wanted to ask her out for dinner but she insisted on staying in. It's her birthday and dad's not in, what an eldest child of the house gotta do with it? I COOK.

At least that's all I can think of.

Made this simple meal. No big deal, but having to dine together on this special day is a bless. Garlic toast, mushroom cream, meat ball pasta and some Shiraz. She wore that lovely smiles on her face while eating.

And I have my smile right at the bottom of my heart.

Well, mission accomplished!

Doris is a Doris

This test is pretty interesting.
It has 2 questions only.
Answer them honestly and it'll tell you what's your name based on the choices you make.
Turns out I am a Doris.
So let's say my name suits me well.

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You Are a Doris!

You are a Doris -- " I must help others."
Dorises are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's needs.

How to Get Along with Me

* Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.
* Share fun times with me.
* Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.
* Let me know that I am important and special to you.
* Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.

In Intimate Relationships

* Reassure me that I am interesting to you.
* Reassure me often that you love me.
* Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.

What I Like About Being a Doris

* being able to relate easily to people and to make friends
* knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better
* being generous, caring, and warm
* being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings
* being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor

What's Hard About Being a Doris

* not being able to say no
* having low self-esteem
* feeling drained from overdoing for others
* not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish
* criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should
* being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to them
* working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings

Dorises as Children Often

* are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism
* try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding
* are outwardly compliant
* are popular or try to be popular with other children
* act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention
* are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Dorises), or quiet and shy (the more introverted Dorises)

Dorises as Parents

* are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)
* are often playful with their children
* wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?" "Have I caused irreparable damage?"
* can become fiercely protective

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Interested in the quiz? Try it out: HELLOQUIZZY

Home made meat porridge

There are different types of porridge. One is like rice in the soup, another is like cream soup where the grains are all cooked and melted, and one more is like this one - a bit sticky.

My mom used to call the third type TeowChew porridge.

Minced pork and diced carrot cooked in porridge and garnish with spring onions and fried garlic oil. The weather's been bad, and many people fall sick. I am not feeling very well too, so I make this nutritious meal to recharge my body hoping it to gain the antibody against the flu bugs.


This is my work. Want some?

It's the end of the year

Year end's approaching. It could mean another new beginning isn't very far away; or to some people it brings a huge thing - SHOPPING!

Ahh.....don't worry, I'm not that shopping kaki, although I'd enjoy spending too if I can. so this post isn't about the big bags of hunting.

It isn't my purpose here today.

October is finishing, a good friend is planning to pay me a visit during the mid of next month and another buddy that we always call each other FUCK (it means "friend you can keep") will come see me in December.

Now, people come and go isn't a big deal. It's a flow, which we call "natural". The thing is how we actually cherish the time we have together? Friendship grows over time, having "tolerance, respect, understanding" as the very key ingredients, and we preserve it with the warmth of our heart and faith.

Happy happy!

Being in charge but not the visible leader

"Behind every successful person is a successful assistant. You don't have to be the group leader to be in charge, especially if the group leader is looking to you for answers. It's a variation on many themes."

Hmm, this is interesting...

Goal driven and focus

Me and him had a talk this morning. We were talking about PERFORMING ON STAGE. Yep, that's what we like to do and how we met each other. Dance is in his blood, just like drama is to mine. It is our another way of talking to one another - movements relate us. There is no doubt we love that place where lime light help make our effort visible to audience. We love how we put forward our effort throughout the rehearsals and practice, and gain that contentment and recognition.

However, the focus shifted. It isn't so that our interest's changed, rather there're other stuff come up and become a bigger picture. Let's say that place isn't going to give us a living, thus we need to make our own path. We've made the choice and making the attempt to work along the way to get where we intend to be.

By all means, we cannot afford to get distracted. We know deep down our heart the passion for performing arts is residing and shall never fade, but we are now shaping our life by dedicating ourselves into building our future. We do keep that piece of us alive, except we are now paying attention on something that will help and allow us to come back to it later.

Where the heart rests

Sometimes, when one have worked very far to reach goals and achieve dreams, will always feel the need to have one end to be anchored down in order to feel safe. Most of the time, support and energy come from here. Although there are times when disagreement will make one another slam the door or even shed tears, but they always remain at the very special place in our heart. A place that we know no one else will ever take over.

They are, family.

I might have been very defiant, but still there is no place like home.

from left: Joie, myself, Marvin (younger brother), John (youngest brother), mom & dad, taken on 4th Oct 2008

Head ran blank

I knew I have something to say, because I had this very very short memory in my mind that keeps telling me, "write in my blog about it". But weirdest thing is when I sat down and preparing myself for the writing, the brain gone blank.

"What was I trying to write?"

I can't really remember already.

Age catching up? PLEASE DON'T!

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Anyway, just write something.
Anything.

Maybe "Ghost Whisperer".
I am only following the episodes in Season 2 when everyone in the States is chasing the forth season (SLOW ME). Well, it's ok. It's got to be enjoyable if one would to really go into series .

So I am here to announce that I've never watch SEX & THE CITY (so what?), have accidentally seen DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES on AXN (or something) when I was jumping between channels on the tv. Not to mention CSI (or the series of different CSI), 24 and bla bla bla (how can I follow everything? I'm so not the tv type of person).

(gone too far, am suppose to talk about Ghost Whisperer). So this sentimental yet interesting series (produced by the lead actress - Jennifer Love Hewitt) really is something. Although not much of twists and turns like HEROES (which I am following really up-to-date), it has it's own beauty - spared quite some room for me to really see things from a different perspective. Unlike the scary tales, every spirit have some real lesson to learn (so do we) through the life one has on earth. Unfinished business isn't all about accomplishing business only (ignore me if too complicated it sounds). Take a moment and really listen to one another. You'd be surprise how you've lived your life so centred and forgot about people around.



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I'll come back once I remember what I was so keen to tell.