Touch of Heart

Every now and then I will find myself in a place where I'm almost surrounded by emotion of being touched. I guess it just appear to me that our heart always long for something, of which I think is the feeling of belonging. And all these contentment and happy tears came to me through, sometimes words while other times, body language.

I guess that is why I find myself resonate with contemporary dance, although myself can't dance even a bit of those unexplainable movements. Our vocabularies are limited thus we continue searching for more ways to express. So often I found - one act that touches and melts our heart is always the unsaid thoughts through the caress of silent touch as the connection takes place when emotions collide.

I've attached 2 amazing piece from this year's America So You Think You Can Dance Season 7. Take a look.

The message is clear like being claimed by Isadora Duncan (May 26, 1877 - September 14, 1927) ,

"If I could tell you that, I wouldn't have to dance it."

Feeling What's Feeling Inside

I've always have this struggle in me: whether to really surrender myself to my feelings or hold myself up with what I really have and can.

Thinking has always been reasoning. It's breaking things down to particles and sort them out accordingly, which I've taken quite some years to learn and practice. Some say it (for being sensible)somehow is in my blood that's why I can resonate with that pattern. But I must confess that I have been pulling myself back and forth between being sensual and sensible because I have had several feeling attacks over the years which I end up like the broken pieces my brain's handling and it felt as if I totally lose myself.

Being cool and detach in the dimension of thinking and reasoning and mapping things out is more of a training than being fragile and vulnerable towards the dimension of true heart feelings inside that comes naturally through the veins. I am not too sure if what I am having right now after watching this video is a mixed combination of thinking and feeling but I do know one thing for sure: feeling gives me the pleasure and fear at the same time.

It's too honest.

So from time to time I allow myself to feel what I can and what I am feeling and record it with the help of words through my head. This is perhaps the best method I can find so far to let my feelings and thinking find their balance.

Do You Deserve Winning?

I watched Hell's Kitchen Season 2 on AFC yesterday. It's one of the episodes where Gordon Ramsay tests the 3 contestants, Keith, Heather, & Virginia, who's competing for the place to the top and one will be terminated by the end of the show.

Every contestant gets to nominate with his/her reason for the one to be disqualified and their decision will finally being decide by Gordon.

Sometimes we are standing at the crossroad not knowing where we will go. But often this feeling of unknowing is actually being driven by the fear of taking charge. If we are on the path of becoming a leader, we have got to be a leader - be able to lead and be able to know what must be done and DO IT!


Watch it, from minute 2.22 of this following clip and continue with the remaining two. You'll know what I mean.

I personally like this part a lot where Gordon has mentioned a few very important things:
(1) All I'm looking for right now is a leader.
(2) You got two choices: you run the team or the team runs you.
(3) A good leader, each and everyday, has to make tough decision.

It doesn't matter how well you have been and what your dreams are. What matter is how good you are now, what quality do you have and how well is your endurance through and through till you really get what you want.

Ask yourself: Why you deserve to win? Are you the old or new dog?

What I See When I See What I Am Seeing

The past Sunday wrote me a note via my work.

It reads:

There is a place that our conscious mind and knowledge cannot reach. It contains the real and true side of us and it carries its own perception towards things around us. On top of that, it knows what we are yet to know and it will only unleash when it sees you ready.

I did not know what it was trying to tell me until I look at the photos that I captured. And I am totally convinced that it constantly repeating itself to me through various ways.

And then I spend the following few days trying to understand that message.


The feeling is so strong: Something is definitely coming my way.

What do you see by the way?

Sometimes Something Just Don't Standout Until You Really Pay Attention

We were waiting for our movie to start in the cinema and watching the commercials playing. This one came into picture almost a 9 months ago and I am still impressed every time I see it replays. But I don't know why nothing beats this time that hits real hard when I hear the sentence - DREAMS BECOME REALITY.

Yes, a dream is the goal that we seek to achieve being drafted and painted in our heart and mind. We have it guiding us through our lives breaking all obstacles and defeat every challenges just to making sure we do not stop trying until we get there.

All dreams are immature fruits and only through our continuous attempts it will ripe.

Don't stop believing. Dreams are reachable!