Thursday, October 29, 2009

The Corrupted System

I like the idea.

The world is a place where good and evil reside. Likewise to everyone's heart. Everything in this world is seen in different eyes and being defined differently.

So what is truth? Or rather, what does it mean and serve? Where does it stand?

I told Joie and Cindy, "If I am the writer, I will not let Clyde die". But because this is a commercial movie that must be "bad guy" to the sentence he deserve after what he'd done, so I can't complain about it's ending.

If I were the writer, the court will drop the charges and release Clyde and Nick will either continue his role in the jurisdiction but becomes good friend with Clyde, or quit his job.

To me, it is obvious enough that the movie isn't about either one of them. They are the ones involved somehow because of some incident happened.

The system needs to be corrected for the sake of the people and truth.

Otherwise, I really have to say I am on Clyde's side, although I don't agree with his way of dealing with the loophole of the corrupted system.

Monday, October 26, 2009


I constantly reminding myself that it is important to watch myself every step of the way.

It's called "awareness", being present at where I am.

And honestly I see the effect and impact of the baby steps.

Growing Day by Day

Becoming a Better Person

At some point in our lives, many of us find ourselves overcome with the desire to become better people. While we are all uniquely capable of navigating this world, we may nonetheless feel driven to grow, expand, and change. This innate need for personal expansion can lead us down many paths as we develop within the context of our individual lives. Yet the initial steps that can put us on the road to evolution are not always clear. We understand that we want to be better but have no clear definition of “better.” To ease this often frustrating uncertainty, we can take small steps, keeping our own concept of growth in mind rather than allowing others to direct the course of our journey. And we should accept that change won’t happen overnight—we may not recognize the transformations taking place within us at first.

Becoming a better person in your own eyes is a whole-life project, and thus you should focus your step-by-step efforts on multiple areas of your existence. Since you likely know innately which qualities you consider good, growing as an individual is simply a matter of making an effort to do good whenever possible. Respect should be a key element of your efforts. When you acknowledge that all people are deserving of compassion, consideration, and dignity, you are naturally more apt to treat them in the manner you yourself wish to be treated. You will intuitively become a more active listener, universally helpful, and truthful. Going the extra mile in all you do can also facilitate evolution. Approaching your everyday duties with an upbeat attitude and positive expectations can help you make the world a brighter, more cheerful place. Finally, coming to terms with your values and then abiding by them will enable you to introduce a new degree of integrity and dignity into your life.

As you endeavor to develop yourself further, you can take pride not only in your successes, but also in the fact that you are cultivating consciousness within yourself through your choices, actions, and behaviors. While you may never feel you have reached the pinnacles of awareness you hope to achieve, you can make the most of this creative process of transformation. Becoming a better person is your choice and is a natural progression in your journey of self-awareness.

The Clock Is Ticking

It's getting nearer and nearer yet our plan is still hanging in the air. It reminds me about the trip to Daen Mahamongkol that I had a few years ago. I know what needs to be done and what is coming but nothing showed up and no sign of presence or whatsoever even the date is round the corner.

I need to have faith.

Belief is a very strange thing.

It is like the magic wand that draws just about anything to come true.

There are times when I pause to wonder "what's beneath this whole thing?"

But I guess it is all because of the mysterious TIMING. And perhaps it is all about preparing to receive. Very much like this article that I read this morning...

Exploring Our Readiness
In-Between Times

It could be argued that life is more about the time spent waiting for something to happen than it is about something happening. What this means is that the big events in our lives are preceded by many days and nights of dreaming, planning, organizing, and waiting. The times of waiting in between the big events actually constitute the majority of our lives. These in-between times are anything but uneventful. In fact, they are rich with possibility and filled with opportunities for reflection and preparation. Like a pregnant woman awaiting the birth of her child, we have a finite period of time in which to prepare internally and externally for the upcoming event that will define a new chapter in our lives.

When we find ourselves in an in-between time, we often can’t help but feel impatient for the impending event. We just want to get to the future and have the new baby, the new job, or the new house. And yet, there is a reason a pregnancy takes nine months to fulfill itself. Nature provides the expectant parents with this time so that they can prepare the nest. This preparation plays out on many levels. Materially, a space must be created in the home and resources must be set aside for the baby’s future; psychologically, a shift must occur in which the psyches of both parents agree to be responsible for a new life in the world; and emotionally, the heart must open wider to embrace and fulfill a new love.

Whenever you find yourself in such a time of waiting, you might want spend time exploring your material, psychological, and emotional readiness. For example, if you are preparing to move to a new city, you could make a list of things you’d like to do in the city you will be leaving behind, and go to your favorite places and spend time with old friends. This way, you will remain fully engaged in the present as you await your future, savoring the in-between time as a vital experience in itself.

I truthfully following this flow of life, this flow of timing...

Sunday, October 25, 2009

One Year now~

Everyone knows what time flies is. I particularly feel this term so much present when we went all the way up to Penang Hill to this restaurant to have our afternoon tea and also dinner.

It's our 1st anniversary since we're registered. Well we aren't the "Anniversary" kind of person but somehow it'd be sweet at least we celebrate once. Not demanding for anything but cherishing the love and bond we have since the day we're together and also the commitment that we're going to hold on down the road.

He'd planned for this for quite some time but tight schedules were rather time consuming and I don't like it to be done in a rush. So we delay it a little just to let both of us have the space and air to enjoy our day.

The ticketing station was rather packed yesterday. We got our 5pm ticket at 3.45pm and so we decided to get a break before we got suffocated by the thin air in the waiting room. We went to Sunshine Farlim for a very nice egg tart (sorry no photo) and went back on time. Set our feet on the hill breathing the fresh cool breeze around 5.30pm and we straight away headed to our destination. I got a pretty bad headache so he helped me to sooth the pain by ordering a pot of chamomile tea. We had our English afternoon tea in a place surrounded by birds chirping and light mist. That is when we had our very delicious potato wedges.

As night fall, we moved in to the cottage and had our dinner. He ordered a Roast Lamb Rack and I had my favorite Caesar Salad and also Onion Soup. All food were great, and the ambient was even better. What I think the most beautiful is the closeness and love we share.

Life isn't about sailing through the journey without any hiccups. Rather it is a process of realizing the true meaning and purpose of sharing this journey together, whether they are ups or downs.

Seeing the connection in everything every step of the way, we are here to write this story together...

Happy Anniversary honey. Love you most, always~~

Thursday, October 22, 2009


Some people are so afraid to change. And so consistency and stability have always been the most prioritized issue in life. Everything should go according to plan, all plans should happen according to expectation, all expectations should receive agreement according to preference, and so on.

People like this has a name: Control Freak.

Although everyone knows nothing stay the same forever but they refuse to accept it.

And so they work every bit of themselves to make sure things never get out from their grab.

It's only been less than 2 years since I decided and left my position as super-moderator the forum, and the place has got itself a pretty messy and degraded image and status.

Those who care so much for that place are rather angry with the lame management of the moderators there. These members gathered together to form a series of statements showing their distrust in these particular forum's moderators.

See to me I agree to the statement where disastrous thing happen is actually helping to clear away the unwanted waste of resources. Without demolition, there is no room for development. And acknowledging the fact of ever changing is an eternal law.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

A Leader

The incident of Malaysia Chinese Association Extraordinary General Meeting held on October 10 2009 where the central delegates have voted on the following matters has brought me to think: what do we really see?

The matter to be resolved through this EGM is to decide whether:
(1) the members of the General Assembly have no confidence in the leadership of the current president of MCA Datuk Seri Ong Tee Keat.
(2) the decision of the Presidential Council of august 26 2009 (accepting the recommendation of the disciplinary board) and the subsequent decision of the central committee (if any) to expel or suspend Datuk Seri Chua Soi Lek from membership of the MCA is hereby annulled.
(3) following from the passage of resolution (2) above that Datuk Seri Chua Soi Lek be rightfully restored to the position of deputy president of the MCA.

And the results showed that more than half of central delegates:
(1) no longer have faith in the leadership of current president
(2) decided not to expel or suspend Datuk Seri Ong's sacked deputy Datuk Seri Chua Soi Lek (one involved in sensational sex scandal whereby the recorded scene of him and his female personal friend was circulated online and in the market)
(3) decided that Datuk Seri Chua can never be restored to the position of deputy prisident of the MCA.

What happen to the vision and mission in uniting the fellow Chinese-Malaysian towards a better and bright future? What about working as a team in taking the welfare of the people than individual(self) interest? Where has the one with a good leadership qualities gone?

It is heart-aching to see how individualism has penetrated the union. Taking "caring the people" to rationalize the selfish idea of fulfilling own desire. drive, an objective or mission. And so we see how a team is breaking apart and everything just collapse accordingly. It is painful to see everything that mattered has vanished and being taken over by some overstated cause and people are fooled and ruled by these individualistic morons.

One with tunnel vision, small heart and no love can never prevail no matter how. One may use wickedness and tactics to satisfy short-term interest and greed but there will be no respect from the people.

There is a Chinese saying which means so much for all leaders: 先天下之憂而憂, 後天下之樂而樂 (xian thian xia zhi you er you, hou tian xia zhi le er le). It means a good leader must have the heart to be the first to worry for all worries and the last to happy for all happiness. The priority must always be given to the welfare of others than own self. It is the determination to take everyone as own responsibility and ambition.

I saw a very interesting picture from one of the local press today and I think it is very relevant to nominating the right candidate as the leader of people.

Possesses the qualities of former presidents including:
(1) the vision of Tun Tan Cheng Lock
(2) the courage of Tun Lim Chong Eu
(3) the determination of Tan Sri Lee San Choon
(4) the intelligence of Tan Koon Swan
(5) the patience of Tun Dr Ling Liong Sik
(6) the dedication of Dato' Seri Ong Ka Ting

I think should also take in "wisdom" as well as "good moral" because a leader is someone who can be a role model for others look up to, respect and learn from.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

It's Coming....

I have a birthday present from - a Traditional 11-cards Celtic Cross reading. And so I did the shuffling, and drawing of cards.

The spread goes like this:

Monday, October 05, 2009

The Joy

It is another point of ponder about death. Oh no, I think it is more about life-before-death. Or perhaps I shall rather say the life at final days.

This isn't a new movie. Just because HBO was playing this one last night so I decided to sit down to watch again. Yes, I've watched this before and I still think it has a big room for me to sit in to realize more about life.

I particularly like this one:

"You know, the ancient Egyptians had a beautiful belief about death. When their souls got
to the entrance to heaven, the guards asked them two questions and their answers determined
whether they were able to enter or not. 'Have you found joy in your life?' and 'Has your life
brought joy to others?' "

Most of us spent all our life going after many things thinking that owning what we longed for will bring us the true joy. And then we age to realize much of our time were spent running after things that satisfy our desire rather than bringing us the joy we look for.

There is no formula in finding joy. We cannot control anything, much more on the things we thought we own. This journey is suppose to be fun. And so it will be .

[quoted from the movie]
Dear Edward, I've gone back and forth the last few days trying to decide whether or not I should even write this. In the end, I realized I would regret it if I didn't, so here it goes. I know the last time we saw each other, we weren't exactly hitting the sweetest notes-certain wasn't the way I wanted the trip to end. I suppose I'm responsible and for that, I'm sorry. But in all honestly, if I had the chance, I'd do it again. Virginia said I left a stranger and came back a husband; I owe that to you. There's no way I can repay you for all you've done for me, so rather than try, I'm just going to ask you to do something else for me-find the joy in your life. You once said you're not everyone. Well, that's true-you're certainly not everyone, but everyone is everyone. My pastor always says our lives are streams flowing into the same river towards whatever heaven lies in the mist beyond the falls. Find the joy in your life, Edward. My dear friend, close your eyes and let the waters take you home.